October 27, 2018
I had no idea when I made the video on 10-25-18 about unconditional love (and no tummy tuck for me) that I would come into sexual union with my Divine Masculine the next night. If you had told me that I would go from having never met him or talked with him in person to talking with him for the first time on the phone, meeting him in person, and having sexual union all in one night, I would not have believed you.
When he left around 4 a.m., I took a shower and got back in bed. I laid there waiting to feel something. I thought I would cry. I didn’t. I thought I would feel hurt that he left. I sort of did, but not so much (at the time). I laid in bed with my arms outstretched, wondering why I couldn’t fall asleep.
At 5:30 a.m., it happened. A tsunami of emotion welled up from my core and rocked me backward. I cried. I wailed. But mostly, I felt my heart expand outward from my body in such a tangible way I thought for sure I would be able to feel it with my hands had I not been in the midst of a back-arching kundalini wave of emotional purging. I felt my heart extend outward from me in all directions, as if my heart were an actual physical plane that had mass and structure. It was amazing. I’m not sure how long this lasted, but when it was over, daylight was creeping in around the curtains of my room’s only window. This was a heart-opening I would never forget.
NOTE: This video (below) was recorded on 11-07-18. I couldn’t talk about this before simply because I was too blown away by the experience and needed to process it. I needed to time to integrate the physical experience with the emotional experiences I’ve had since he first came to me in a dream all those years ago and many times since.