The alarm went off. I woke up. Sort of. I snoozed the alarm and stretched.

I felt warm liquid at the opening of my vagina, but it was held in by my inner labia. I had been on my period for a few days, so this should be the day it takes off. My usual cycle is three days then a day off, followed by a day that is really just heavy spotting. On those last two days, I don’t use a tampon. It hurts too much to pull it out when there isn’t enough blood flow and the cotton absorbs any vaginal fluid.

Being horny and kind of forgetting about being on my period the past three days, I reached down and fingered my labia, feeling some of the fluid there at the gate, ready to burst forth. Warm and thick, the viscosity was slightly different — not much but enough for me to notice. I brought my fingers out from under the sheet and saw traces of red mixed in with the clear vaginal fluid.

Then I remembered my period. I brought my fingers up to my nose and inhaled. Metallic. I didn’t care. My hand slipped back under the sheet, and my fingers found my lips again.

As I spread the juices around my labia and my clit, the fluid seemed a little more sticky than usual. There was more blood than I had thought there would be. I had never masturbated using menstrual blood before; not intentionally anyway. And honestly, yesterday would have been the perfect day due to the heavier flow. I also didn’t have a towel handy, so I didn’t go full-on friggin’ off.

I kept to my stealth orgasms that involve the smallest, barely-there touch to the side of the external clitoris. This barely-there touch triggers immediate full-body orgasms — not the explosive type of orgasm associated with stimulating the clit tip. These are more like vaginal/prostate full-body orgasms, except these happen almost instantly; but the moment of climax with these stealth clit orgasms is much stronger than the wave-like feeling of a vaginal climax.

The blood mixed in with my vaginal juices helped because, otherwise, vaginal fluid is very slick and slippery. As it should be! The blood made the fluid a little bit sticky, so it was easier to keep the tip of my finger in the exact spot on the head of my clit.

Perhaps I should have felt weird about this, but I didn’t. Menstrual blood is one of the five sacred fluids in Tantra, however, most women are made to feel shame about this very natural and very necessary process of shedding the uterine lining each month. Tantra has extended rituals of worshiping the yoni, which is the Sanskrit word that simultaneously refers to the vulva and vagina as well as the woman as a whole.

I don’t mind sex during my period, but it must be slower and more careful. My cervix (the lower third of the uterus that descends into the vagina) can be very tender — as will be my breasts and even my inner thighs. This morning, I definitely was not going to use a toy, but playing in the mixed fluids and deriving pleasure from them allowed me to have a different perspective on the possibilities of using menstrual blood as lubrication for solo-play in the future.

I say “in the future” because I didn’t get to go as far as I wanted. The alarm went off again, and this time I really had to get out of bed and get moving. But I will definitely revisit masturbating with menstrual blood again. Blood is sacred, and so is self-love. It’s kind of a perfect combination … if you put a towel down first.

Aroused and sticky,

trish

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